"if it excites you and scares the hell out of you, then it's worth trying" aka THE CROSSROADS
"If it excites you and scares the hell out of you, then it's worth trying."
This past month has really pushed me to step out of my comfort zone and deeply get to know myself as a person both professionally and personally. I have been at a crossroads in regards to where this path will take me. At this point, a huge part of me is like, "Fuck it. Let's try multiple things." Career wise, I have decided to pursues careers in photography, dance, writing, and holistics (particularly aromatherapy, herbology, and energy healing). To be honest, I know that the regularly 9-5 lifestyle is for me. My mind is constantly thinking of creative ways to carry on with my life, and I think that working in ONE career would truly hinder me from bringing my creative ideas to life. Of course, there is the other argument of, "Get a day job to pay the bills in order to focus on hobbies that fulfill your soul." I guess that it is a way of saying, "Base your career around your life, not your life around your career." Given that we live in a society that is constantly bombarding us to conform to rather unrealistic standards on how to live and how to work, I am in the midst of a war between what my soul wants for me and what the outside world wants for me.
On top of that, there is this small voice on the inside (I am dead serious when I say this) whispering: "Take this risk. If you don't you will regret it for the rest of your life." I am also starting to notice this in my conversations that I am having with those around me. I have been told that I have a powerful mind, I am an Old Soul, and that I am very creative. These things alone are signs that a major change is on the horizon. One of the biggest signs for me was when I went on a retreat to Washington, DC with my fellow corps members. Everything around me sparked an inspiration for creativity! I toured an arts center in which the departments included photography, theater, dance, and music and I was immediately in awe. It created a sense of euphoria. (I guess that is where I am at a crossroads about. Of course, I want to pursue the arts, but the unsettling voice of my Ego is saying, "Yeah, but be realistic.") Also, attending the African American Museum (which was the highlight of my trip) sent my emotions into overdrive. I was so happy and enamored with everything I saw. You see, I grew up on the classics. I cannot really get with the new stuff today, to be honest. Seeing the likes of Michael Jackson, Prince, James Brown, Diana Ross, Marvin Gaye, Bob Marley, Chuck Berry, etc. made me go, "Oh, yes. The arts is a place for me." I am not saying that I want a multi-million dollar deal and to sell my soul to Hollywood; I am saying that I want to be able to use my creativity to help people, heal people (holistics), all while being able to put food on the table and support myself.
If there is one thing about being at crossroads that not many us seem to talk about, it is getting started. Taking that one foot step, letting go and learning to trust the process. The shit is hard! This spiritual journey is not something to be romanticized, and it is definitely not "love and light" 24/7/365. I would love it if this were more of a conversation, because it gives folks on their spiritual journey the understanding that this is not easy, but it is not impossible either. When you are at the CROSSROADS, especially if you are experiencing the effects of your Spiritual Awakening, you are in the process of disillusioning everything you thought was concrete. Everything in you thought to be the truth. What you learn being at the crossroads is that transitions and changes are meant to happen. If you resist these crucial parts of life, you are not helping yourself - you are hindering yourself from improving. I am not trying to preach or "wag my finger", as I am writing this to remind myself also. I am constantly reminding myself of these things, and calling myself out on my own bullshit. You have to, because at the end of the day the biggest responsbility you have is to yourself, right? People come and go, opportunities do as well. However, the person we will have to constantly answer to and life for is the person we look at in the mirror: OURSELVES. In spite of all of the crap we go through on a daily basis, we are pushing through. We are triumphing, we are failing, we are winning, we are losing. Most importantly, we are living and we are learning. So, for those of us who are currently at the crossroads in our lives, understand that if it excites you and scares the hell out of you, this just may mean that something is on the horizon for you. Pay attention to the signs. It may very well change your life.
Until next time, the journey continues. Let's continue to (learn how to) love ourselves and each other.
End of Blog Song, "Why" by 3T & Michael Jackson!
This past month has really pushed me to step out of my comfort zone and deeply get to know myself as a person both professionally and personally. I have been at a crossroads in regards to where this path will take me. At this point, a huge part of me is like, "Fuck it. Let's try multiple things." Career wise, I have decided to pursues careers in photography, dance, writing, and holistics (particularly aromatherapy, herbology, and energy healing). To be honest, I know that the regularly 9-5 lifestyle is for me. My mind is constantly thinking of creative ways to carry on with my life, and I think that working in ONE career would truly hinder me from bringing my creative ideas to life. Of course, there is the other argument of, "Get a day job to pay the bills in order to focus on hobbies that fulfill your soul." I guess that it is a way of saying, "Base your career around your life, not your life around your career." Given that we live in a society that is constantly bombarding us to conform to rather unrealistic standards on how to live and how to work, I am in the midst of a war between what my soul wants for me and what the outside world wants for me.
On top of that, there is this small voice on the inside (I am dead serious when I say this) whispering: "Take this risk. If you don't you will regret it for the rest of your life." I am also starting to notice this in my conversations that I am having with those around me. I have been told that I have a powerful mind, I am an Old Soul, and that I am very creative. These things alone are signs that a major change is on the horizon. One of the biggest signs for me was when I went on a retreat to Washington, DC with my fellow corps members. Everything around me sparked an inspiration for creativity! I toured an arts center in which the departments included photography, theater, dance, and music and I was immediately in awe. It created a sense of euphoria. (I guess that is where I am at a crossroads about. Of course, I want to pursue the arts, but the unsettling voice of my Ego is saying, "Yeah, but be realistic.") Also, attending the African American Museum (which was the highlight of my trip) sent my emotions into overdrive. I was so happy and enamored with everything I saw. You see, I grew up on the classics. I cannot really get with the new stuff today, to be honest. Seeing the likes of Michael Jackson, Prince, James Brown, Diana Ross, Marvin Gaye, Bob Marley, Chuck Berry, etc. made me go, "Oh, yes. The arts is a place for me." I am not saying that I want a multi-million dollar deal and to sell my soul to Hollywood; I am saying that I want to be able to use my creativity to help people, heal people (holistics), all while being able to put food on the table and support myself.
If there is one thing about being at crossroads that not many us seem to talk about, it is getting started. Taking that one foot step, letting go and learning to trust the process. The shit is hard! This spiritual journey is not something to be romanticized, and it is definitely not "love and light" 24/7/365. I would love it if this were more of a conversation, because it gives folks on their spiritual journey the understanding that this is not easy, but it is not impossible either. When you are at the CROSSROADS, especially if you are experiencing the effects of your Spiritual Awakening, you are in the process of disillusioning everything you thought was concrete. Everything in you thought to be the truth. What you learn being at the crossroads is that transitions and changes are meant to happen. If you resist these crucial parts of life, you are not helping yourself - you are hindering yourself from improving. I am not trying to preach or "wag my finger", as I am writing this to remind myself also. I am constantly reminding myself of these things, and calling myself out on my own bullshit. You have to, because at the end of the day the biggest responsbility you have is to yourself, right? People come and go, opportunities do as well. However, the person we will have to constantly answer to and life for is the person we look at in the mirror: OURSELVES. In spite of all of the crap we go through on a daily basis, we are pushing through. We are triumphing, we are failing, we are winning, we are losing. Most importantly, we are living and we are learning. So, for those of us who are currently at the crossroads in our lives, understand that if it excites you and scares the hell out of you, this just may mean that something is on the horizon for you. Pay attention to the signs. It may very well change your life.
Until next time, the journey continues. Let's continue to (learn how to) love ourselves and each other.
End of Blog Song, "Why" by 3T & Michael Jackson!
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